26 January 2005

Our environment, the world in which we live and work, is a mirror of our attitudes and expectations...

Eid- a time when we get together and have a big feast. We also slaughter sheeps (plural for sheep) and give the meat to the poor. Are we missing something? Is that all its supposed to be? Should we be doing something more? Should we be striving for some greater purpose?
Why?
I'm pretty happy trying to make money and set myself up for a nice comfortable life! So everyone else should get lost- all the poor and oppressed and starving and ignorant and the rest who need to be liberated by the Islam that we have- tell them that I don’t give a shit! I need to buy a new car and a flat in Sandton and find a pretty girl to marry and take an overseas holiday once a year! I can do all these things and maybe (InshaAllah- Remember me in your duas) go to Jannah when I die because I'm a good Muslim- I behave well, and I dress like a Muslim and pray my Salaah and give my Zakaat to Sanzaf and I'm InshaAllah going for hajj when I save enough and I bought a sheep and gave it away so leave me alone.....

What?! What was that about? Hmm…


Eid was enjoyable in Newcastle, a good break from joburg and work. The young cousins are all helping out with catching and slaughtering, so we get done pretty quickly. We had quite a few feasts- 3 on Fri, lunch on Sat and a big braai Sat night. For a hundred people that was a whole lot of food and I think I had more than my share!

Was a sad day to come back to joburg and work and traffic and funny tasting tap water! Car still in the lab so catching a lift with zubz every morn- he’s the man;-) Makes going to work so much easier! (see pic!)

Just thinking of the people that work in that nice beautiful office building. It looks so nice from the outside but the offices suck! The okes working there each have a small cubicle and a pc that they sit in front of the whole day, making money for somebody else and taking a small part of it home. At least we only there for a month at a time and move on to different surroundings. Work- *sigh*

Well, nothing really exciting to report on yet, so till next week be good and keep in touch…

21 January 2005

Knowledge is a process of piling up facts- wisdom lies in their simplification...

Been thinking about one of the replies I had to my last email- what makes us believers? How do we know that we believe? Is our Imaan weakened or strengthened when we question it? A revert to Islam has his disbelief to compare so he knows the difference between believing and disbelieving, but how to we check ourselves? Is it our behaviour? Our actions? Or our thoughts? Something to think about…

Well, keeping track of my life- here’s the past week: Bet you find these mails exciting:-p

Last Thurs our division had initiation and I had the crowd laughing themselves silly. Everyone had to go in front and introduce themselves and answer a few questions. I don’t know if it was a clever thing to do, but my comments had everyone in stitches! The good thing is that it was the start of many interesting conversations over coffee for the next few days…

Only two weeks into the job and I get called in to work on a Saturday! But it’s not too bad because I can get double time off for study leave…. Joined Habib and his Lenz buddies for coffee at Melrose arch later that night. Quite a funny bunch of guys, we played charades outside the entrance of Kilimanjaro (Nescafe) and all the hardcore clubbers that were waiting in line to get into the club were looking at us with envy- we were having soo much fun and didn’t have to pay big bucks or get high!

On Sunday went to Nabeela’s wedding in Laudium with Irfaan. The wedding was cool, met lotsa Durban people there and all nabeelas ex-pat friends from Cape Town. Irfaan is very interesting company, he has engineering, management and a few others degrees and a MBA as well! And he reads a hellava lot…
Well, after the wedding I find my car stuck at Zak P place! Got Hamza and Zakir to tow me and took the car to my uncle’s place. Left it with him to sort out with the mechanic and spent the night with Zakir. Don’t know what I would have done if I didn’t know so many really nice people here in joburg. It makes a big difference when you have friends you can call on at anytime and they gladly help…

Had board lectures on Wednesday and don’t think I ever looked forward to lectures before in my life! It started at 9 but I only woke up at 9 so was late. Turned out to be a real ‘bored’ lecture- nothing new, the same stuff we did on campus. But I’m worried, need to really start studying seriously coz its gona be a suck if I fail- you then at KPM coz you wont earn the G- the extra grand a month that you earn when you pass board! I want to be KPM & G!

Heading to Newcastle for Eid- it rocks in NN. All the hundreds of randerees and their many kids all get together so is a real fun event. Something I look forward to the whole year...

12 January 2005

The biggest adventure you can ever take is to live the life of your dreams...

Has it been a week already since my last email! Time flies when you having fun;-p
Its amazing how much your environment affects your behaviour- I find myself talking like chucky! not exactly like chucky but you know what I mean… (chucky is white man for those who don’t know) and even my walk is changing, it must have something to do with the way I have to dress… and I’m even getting comfortable in chucky’s dress- last week I couldn’t wait to change out of work clothes and by yesterday I was comfortable walking around sandton city in work clothes *phew*

Now all these small changes are definitely trivial, but I’ve been thinking- can it be more? Like the way I greet people- was their something wrong with the way I used to greet people that now I have to do it differently? And shaking hands with women- I know its not right and last week I felt guilty shaking hands with a women (doesn’t happen often!) and I had to this week and didn’t really feel guilty…

And last week I made it a point of finding a JK during lunch everyday, and yesterday I probably didn’t try hard enough to find a JK and consoled myself by saying that
‘its ok, I cant help it.. Will pray zuhr after work.. At least I’m still worried about it….”
I’m slipping, aren’t I?

And during coffee breaks too- I used to go for coffee with females before, rarely, but now every day the girls come call me to join them for their coffee break and I don’t even think twice about joining them…
“They just call me coz I make them laugh and there’s no harm in it coz I have to have coffee anyway and there’s no reason for not joining them coz I am working with them anyway…”
But its not like I’m just a comedian, I talk serious too- there’s a girl who went and found out about why she’s Christian and she’s still not sure. With a few more weeks I may be able to get through to her…

But my point is- Is it wrong that we change our behaviour in different environments? Do we ALL change our behaviour in different environments? Even if the changes are slight and hardly noticeable unless you search carefully…

Btw, joburg not too bad… in fact, haven’t had a chance to start studying yet coz been meeting up with everyone I know here… and still have few more people to meet so hopefully can get into study mode by weekend…

Well, I’ve been assigned a whole bunch of work and the audit deadline is next week so I’d better get back to work before someone catches me wasting time!
Working overtime today and maybe this weekend too! But can take study leave for overtime so not too bad…

05 January 2005

The Beginning

Howsit? Work is seriously not as bad as I expected! The only problem is staying awake! Its not like when you on campus, either wake up late or sleep afternoons… but I’ll get used to it soon.. I hope!!
Thought I’ll fill you guys in on what I’ve been up to since I got here- you might be annoyed by these emails, but I learnt it from a friendJ and it’s a good way to keep track of the days ;-p

Sun: Left NN late coz of a funeral and had car problems (as usual!) just as I got to engen 1 stop! Managed to sort it out myself and reached joburg just after maghrib… staying with family friends in fordsburg till I find place…

Mon: First day of work- reminded me of first day of primary school… just made it there on time! Need to wake up 30 min earlier, they split us up into our divisions and assigned us to clients. Spent the rest of the day at the client doing statutory work- its important stuff! Zakir Patel stays in the area so went to his flat for lunch and zohr… Then after work met Ashfaaq and Zubair at his place. If I can do this everyday after work then I wont mind working! Met Aslam Paruk for coffee after Esha and chilled out a bit. Not a bad first day…

Tues: Had an early morning meeting and actually woke up early! Had a full day of work so was really tired by the afternoon. Met Nasir and Mohsin at the Zone after work and bought tickets for Shark Tale. Went to ZakP for tea with Ash and Zubz- this just sets off a day of workJ They joined us for the movie and I tried to get an early night, work in the morning! Cant wait for the weekend and extra hours of sleep…

Wed: Todays seems like its going to be a normal, boring working day… Rest of the week should be the same so think im gona hold on to these till next week…

A email now and then would be appreciated :-)